Showing posts from November, 2011

Balance - I miss you

I came home from work last night, to the last straining light of the sun and I felt dizzy. Literally every step felt like a fight to stay vertical. It was one of those episodes of dizziness that spin even worse when you close your eyes. Luckily it didn't last long, but in another way it's a new state of being; feeling slightly off kilter.
I'm trying to balance my life and fit in all the things that I once did but I'm trying to do it with 34 less hours a week than I had before. Ya, I'm sucking big time at it. Last week was pretty bad, as I had a couple days that left me in raging wacko mode, days that found me and my family on our knees with daughter pleading in family prayers, "please help my Mommy be happy again." Ouch.
I know I can do it. I know I can fit in what matters most. I have to eliminate some of my fav things that don't matter at all and that is a tough pill to swallow. I have lots of time wasters that I enjoy. Haha. Farewell blog …


Little neglected blog...where do I begin? Life has been a bit of a blur lately. I guess it's fair to say that we've been in a blue period around here. Lots of transition, change, struggles. It's kinda felt like we having been living in a state of cautious living, as though life is a giant gasp with no exhale point. Not to worry about me and Russ as a couple or the kidlet - in that respect we are fine and for that I am so grateful.
I don't want to say more in a public forum like this, so I'll push on and share some things that have been happening in our little corner of the world. I have a job. Real pay cheque, boss, commute type of working. It's been so long since I've been out of the work force, and not going to lie, the searching was terrible. Hard on the soul, bruising to the ego, littered with terrible self doubting moments. My heart goes out to all those searching for a place to fit, it's so not easy.
I look back on my little job hunting …